LIVING WITH FEAR

[Betty J]

I’ve lived with fear since I was a teen and diagnosed with Diabetes. But I didn’t let fear rule my life. I knew from my almost month stay in the hospital that what I had was serious. I knew from the moment I came out of my coma. My first act to show my Diabetes that I wasn’t going to let it limit me was to walk home from the hospital. It was quite a distance, not sure, of how far it was from where I lived.

Sometimes, I know I made some reckless decisions but that was all part of not letting Diabetes hinder me from something I wanted to do. I didn’t have some of the management tools that are available now. I had one resource to aid me in managing my D, that was my doctor and GOD, GOD who of course was first that is.

Now in my ALMOST twilight years I’m still fighting but D is winning. I have kept my bgs under 7% for many years and have had no problems with Neuropathy. I’ve had Neuropathy for many years but with tighter control, I have had no problems. I’m now having some sort of Neuropathy that’s affecting my back and legs. My Endo thought it might be Sciatic and sent me to a Neurologist. Backing up a bit, I was taking statins. When I went to the Neurologist, he said statins can affect Neuropathy. I had stopped taking statins a few months before seeing the Neurologist because I knew that I had a problem with statins.

All that said, I recently went into that valley and came out and today I went there again, thinking about D and its grip it has had on me lately. I learned when I was young to climb out of that valley and stand at the top of the hill and it help me establish who I am and who I wanted to be.

[iroseland]

hey,

I have a link foating around on my other machine to a site that spells out the herbal stuff I have been useing.

Good controll is of course key. 8^)

Good dailiy system diagnostics are part two. I caught what was going on with me fairly early because of the compulsive morning foot check and the compulsive before bed foot check. As for the link, I wouldnt be sending if the results were not already showing. I have recovered qulity of life that I didnt know was missing and my big toe could tell the floor was cold and wet this morning.. Ok, I overstate, lots of it could, there are still parts that were failing to establish communications with the brain.

As for the living with fear part, I totally get it.. I think we all go there.. Much like there once being a time where you simply did not tell folks you were D. We still need to overcome the not telling folks when its really getting us down. Thing is diabetes is not quite like other chronic deadly diseases.. We are expected to be invisable, and not make any noise. That makes us more dangerous since they cant see us comming.. 8^)

Ivan